I have no doubt you have eyes everywhere in order to get this letter.
I dare not speak for anyone else in this mess we call a patriot community, but for myself when I found out that you were in fact alive, I was thrilled…and terrified. I am terrified that a way to clear your name from the horrid falsities you are accused of will not be found in time before this evil corruption costumed as our government (Latin meaning: mind control) finds you and takes yet another friend and great patriot from my life.
I watch so many claim to know what you are going through, what you are thinking, how you are feeling and judge you for what you are doing; the only person that I know of that can come close would be a great man moments before he was gunned down in the snow by the very same government that is hunting you.
Many are questioning your honesty because of the way that you tested 3 people in your life, me being one of them; at the time that you conducted this test of loyalty you were very uncertain of what was going to happen to you. I remember having to beg you to not take your own life by cop or otherwise, I remember begging you once again to take some sort of help, that there had to be a way…you were not going to have it. You gave me some information, some true, some misleading, some you did not know if it would come to pass or not (if you would expire or not). You asked me, then made me promise to make sure I deleted our conversation making sure the method of communication was gone as it belonged to a friend and you could not bear to see another friend suffer because of you, because of the evil chasing you. The next few days we talked, cried, and prayed…with me deleting each message/all traces as you wanted.
During the last communication, you asked me to deliver a message to your son Kory…that was the hardest promise for me to make to anyone. I do not envy police officers, soldiers, and other people that have to deliver news of a loved one that is missing or may have/has passed.
After not hearing from you again for 4 days I was supposed to call Kory with messages of love for your kids and tell them that the reason I was calling…” if you don’t hear from me again in 4 days I have expired.” I have a confession to make, I did not keep that promise, I waited a couple of days longer, just in case you were late with the call.
In a lot of ways I understand the deceptions, they were a way to protect your loved ones and to see who was to be trust and who wasn’t, I just wonder at times if there wasn’t a better way to flush out the traitors, a way to leave death out of the equation? Would you do it differently if you had the chance to do it over?
I know that you hate lying, it kills you, just as I do…we have talked of this many times. Often, I have to wonder how we, as honest people are supposed to fight the overwhelming dishonesty thrown our way on a daily basis, the truth always comes out in the end but sometimes we need the truth much faster than it takes for time to produce it.
How do we deal with the ones that are so entrenched in their own lies and hopes of grandeur that even when faced with the truth they refuse to see it? This is one thing that I have struggled with in my personal life when someone very close to me would see the truth of their own deceptions in black and white…indisputable evidence of their lies and still say that their version was the gospel truth; in the world that we live in KC that can be so dangerous! I mean so many are so paranoid or suspicious already, for good reason. The government has twisted everything so that the country is tossed into this twisted perversion that is so far from what the Founding Fathers tried to secure…so far from “One nation under God.”
Isaiah 5:20 warned us “Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, wo put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter”
Right now, you and I are both battling this; you unable to set the record straight because it could cost you your life and I unable to set it straight because I did as I promised you and gave you my word. So, does this mean Satan wins this battle?
You have already had to expose yourself because of someone being deceptive, someone that was deceiving your family and undermining me for being true to my word and true to the Lord. Thank you for doing that.
What are we to do my friend? How do we set the record straight? I know you can’t answer me but if you do see this by the grace of God maybe He will show you a way. A way to unite those that have been divided by all this deception and work together to clear your name and bring you home. I know we probably will not be able to do it in time for the birth of your next grandchild but at least so you can get home soon to meet him/her; so you can once again be dad and pop…so that you can be the warrior God has called you to be.
Please don’t worry about me anymore use all of your thought processes and energy for you. My past reputation and integrity will speak for itself and stand. People that are able to speak up on my behalf will when God leads them to. If nothing else, just as the bible says, “the wheat will be separated from the chaff.” I know who I am, you know, but most of all our Lord and Savior knows.
I will continue to work on getting a pardon or clemency for you, anything so that I do not have to see another friend go home too soon. I have fulfilled many promises to you, I am not asking you for one thing. It may be to no avail, as I have begged and pleaded before…but if it comes down to it, if you have anyone around you at all that can help…please ask. God has kept you alive for a reason, He still has plans for you my warrior friend…if He sends help your way please take it, if not for yourself take it for your kids and grandkids.
In the meantime, I (and many others) will continue to pray for your protection and for God’s amazing cloak of protection to be over you.
I have claimed these verses for you. I hope they bring you comfort.
Psalm 34:7 “The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and He delivers them.”
Psalm 91:1-12 “Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Surely, he will save you from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, not the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,” and you make the Most High your dwelling, no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent. For he will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands.”
I hope that these will bring you some sense of comfort and peace.
Dan and I love you greatly and pray for you daily.
God Bless now and always…
Melina aka Little Boots